to be back

hello..

it has been a very long gap of time
that i have dropped a post here
....
and that now i am back,
i shall get back to you my blog
my little friend
;)

love,
mala

Dilemma : Cold & warmth

In a dilemma ;

your presence day by day becomes cold , to a frozen you

meanwhile a warm passionate being came about

to soothe & calm me down

i told about 'you' to you- the frozen you

but

you snapped

and told me about 'me'

i didn't accuse you on anything

i happened to tell you what i see, which you may not realise

but in return you have made me hurt

that it made me shed my tears

thinking how can you be so straightforward when you

utter about yourself, in your own point of view

but

not in expressing your feelings?

we have known ourselves for 4 years

don't you know how soft is my heart, to get cold hard words from you?

and

why is it so hard to tell your feelings when you are a social butterfly?

anyhow, i have slowly opened up to other options & opportunities

and i do not know with whom i am fated to be with, or maybe not...


I am hoping for the good ...


God bless..

hope one day u can show me some emotions

and i hope it would not be too late for the 2 of us..


take care love...

decision : not yet

30 April 2012

It has been a month over since we last met.
reason : busy

The meet comes in a form of improvement
my heart felt it
my likings, my interest, my desire
was somehow taken in account
i was surprised
surprised
for real

expressed , but not in-depth
and
in general


can't look into the eye, for some time
it gives some kind of feel, deep down inside
but in the eye , I can see
the feel of 'want'
pardon me, if it's not..
but i saw it, felt it too


it was a rare thing
that you listened to me,
for each & every words i uttered
as you never do it last time
and that is why i started to become quiet
when it's not my nature, to be as such..
i let you speak
and i listened all the way...
and now i don't know how to talk you
as i am accustomed to silence..

the attention you gave,
the time you spent ,
still surprised me
it's a new you
i see


however,
the decision is yet to be made
whether to share the half of me with you
let's see how the
FAte
etches it...

till then, i will enjoy the company of you as
my friend...

Celebration . Family away

Looks like Tamizh + Vaisakhi + Vishu New Year comes hand-in-hand this time, hence it shall be the celebration Of Hindu/ Indian New Year this year ;)

My day starts bright, with New year prayer, Devi's bath, the completion of my work backlog in the office
however in the evening, as I was returning home, I feel things around me a little quiet..
everyone has gone out , either to temple or for outing/dinner with their family
and at that point, little did i realise that I am missing my family and Penang buddies so much

So ,let the feel in this posting goes to them
let them know how much they are all loved
and
this shall be part of my realisation too..

Hari Om~

Divine transformation : 1

under the Divine energy

i am now moderating & modifying the 'Me'

uniting myself with Lord Shiva

the mesmerizing One

the One who stands tall with Nandi

the One who took the heart of Shakti

:)

change..

At this time .

going thru a major life change experience .

definitely for the betterment of my life.

i Believe

i Hope

Om Shanti~

life according to mala

another year has begun, life's refreshed.
have got many plans arranged up ahead, looking forward for the challenge + accomplishment
* career change, new possessions + commitments, travel plans, relationship (maybe - if the time comes, god knows who could that be - i leave it to fate)


1 thing for sure, I need to be serious & sincere with things, for a smooth flow of course
yes, I am ready for it - for the new refreshed me
and sure it would feel so good
i need some challenges and ready to gain experiences
though my new year was dramatic, but it was good - i learnt my lesson & I thank God

most importantly , one need to be thankful to God, for it has the magic in it,and one day you will know it
looking at the brighter side of life makes me feel so,so good (:
and as Swami Sivananda has mentioned, life should be lived without any expectation + forget unwanted incidents/stuffs/ person- unnecessary worries can suffocate you..
live in love + humility = peace

simplicity + minimalist , shall be my mode & mood of this year.

that's about it, it's time to live & celebrate life
cheers~

(: