missing

of late, i realised i have been losing a little part of me

bit by bit

disorientated..

and i felt like i am missing something

something deep in my life..
jaded- I am..

i asked myself - what is it that is missing intensely in my life
and deep within me , a small vibe of passionate spirit flickered
and there i sensed that is the missing piece of me

well it was actually the cosmic connection which i am missing - in whole

i am missing home
the connection in being One with the Source/Light
that Divine connection...

and now i am longing for it
my heart is aching to be heading back to it
to be back on track

perhaps i am fated for something else
a different adventure
i need to keep pursuing it -no matter what
in the process of it, i could not help but to bear heartaches and the situation of being hurt..
and i learnt-that is how I grow.
 now, I have to carry on
"Keep going Mala"
this is what i have to tell  myself..
and in the process, i have learnt a great lesson that is - whatever that is beyond my capacity , i have no control/attachment to it.
thus i need to keep flowing at ease & gently..
with the Divine blessing,may it shall be..