decision : not yet

30 April 2012

It has been a month over since we last met.
reason : busy

The meet comes in a form of improvement
my heart felt it
my likings, my interest, my desire
was somehow taken in account
i was surprised
surprised
for real

expressed , but not in-depth
and
in general


can't look into the eye, for some time
it gives some kind of feel, deep down inside
but in the eye , I can see
the feel of 'want'
pardon me, if it's not..
but i saw it, felt it too


it was a rare thing
that you listened to me,
for each & every words i uttered
as you never do it last time
and that is why i started to become quiet
when it's not my nature, to be as such..
i let you speak
and i listened all the way...
and now i don't know how to talk you
as i am accustomed to silence..

the attention you gave,
the time you spent ,
still surprised me
it's a new you
i see


however,
the decision is yet to be made
whether to share the half of me with you
let's see how the
FAte
etches it...

till then, i will enjoy the company of you as
my friend...

Celebration . Family away

Looks like Tamizh + Vaisakhi + Vishu New Year comes hand-in-hand this time, hence it shall be the celebration Of Hindu/ Indian New Year this year ;)

My day starts bright, with New year prayer, Devi's bath, the completion of my work backlog in the office
however in the evening, as I was returning home, I feel things around me a little quiet..
everyone has gone out , either to temple or for outing/dinner with their family
and at that point, little did i realise that I am missing my family and Penang buddies so much

So ,let the feel in this posting goes to them
let them know how much they are all loved
and
this shall be part of my realisation too..

Hari Om~

Divine transformation : 1

under the Divine energy

i am now moderating & modifying the 'Me'

uniting myself with Lord Shiva

the mesmerizing One

the One who stands tall with Nandi

the One who took the heart of Shakti

:)

change..

At this time .

going thru a major life change experience .

definitely for the betterment of my life.

i Believe

i Hope

Om Shanti~

life according to mala

another year has begun, life's refreshed.
have got many plans arranged up ahead, looking forward for the challenge + accomplishment
* career change, new possessions + commitments, travel plans, relationship (maybe - if the time comes, god knows who could that be - i leave it to fate)


1 thing for sure, I need to be serious & sincere with things, for a smooth flow of course
yes, I am ready for it - for the new refreshed me
and sure it would feel so good
i need some challenges and ready to gain experiences
though my new year was dramatic, but it was good - i learnt my lesson & I thank God

most importantly , one need to be thankful to God, for it has the magic in it,and one day you will know it
looking at the brighter side of life makes me feel so,so good (:
and as Swami Sivananda has mentioned, life should be lived without any expectation + forget unwanted incidents/stuffs/ person- unnecessary worries can suffocate you..
live in love + humility = peace

simplicity + minimalist , shall be my mode & mood of this year.

that's about it, it's time to live & celebrate life
cheers~

(:

Lotus Sutra

Just sharing an excerpt that I came across an interesting blog,

http://integral-options.blogspot.com/2006_12_31_archive.html

"This is from the current (Winter 2006) issue of Tricycle, Norman Fischer on The Lotus Sutra:"

The Lotus teaches that [the Buddha] appears not from karma, as do all other beings, but due to the "One Great Causal Condition," which is the interdependent nature of existence/nonexistence, a field whose true shape and purpose is love. This is a deep and astounding teaching: that far from being a world of trouble and tears as it appears to be, this world of existence/nonexistence, seen in the light of suchness and lived according to upayais in reality a world of bliss and awakening. But beings don't know this. They are awash in a sea of suffering. Reality's true trajectory is toward relieving this suffering through love.

It seems to me that somehow we all know that love is our real nature and our real goal; we all long to realize this goal, however confused and misguided our longing may be. Being human has embedded right in the middle of it some sense of longing and reaching out for something very, very large, not outside our lives, but as our lives...

Promising days

A little recap on all the good things that had happened lately (few days ago) , starting from the ever wonderful Friday to the amazing Sun!

MOTIVATING FRIDAY ; SEPT 09, 2011

after having a drama in the office, I headed straight for my Odissi (extra) class, and 2 beautiful miracles came about :)

1) We have gotten our beautiful dance cotton sarees as our dance costume for this coming Navarathiri :) and got a colour that I like :)

2) Me and some of my friends (4 of us) are selected to move/head on to another level, which is quite advanced. Definitely this is a wonderful opportunity yet a privilege for us, and therefore I shall appreciate this blessing from God.

ADVENTUROUS SATURDAY ; SEPT 10, 2011

got up quite early in the morning,started off with my first-time-ever journey @ venture to ASWARA for a Dance Photography Workshop by public transport. I managed to reach my destination on time plus I managed to meet up some new friends, and I learnt many, many things too :) and a kind soul offered me a ride from ASWARA up to my arts school! then I joined my Flute class, next had our own practice for contemporary class. After the practice I ran back home, refreshed myself, did an archana for my father it has been the 12th year,since he departed on this date.He is still missed. After a visit to the temple, I ended my Saturday evening with a really good show entitled 'Qismat' with my dance mate @ TFA and then a little service at Annalakshmi, while sharing laughter with my friends .

DARING SUNDAY ; 11 SEPT, 2011

got up early for the morning prayers,and then the day goes with Kathak class, followed with 2 workshops 1) Introduction to Body Movement & 2) Introduction to Acroyoga ; (shall blog more on the those workshops later!) :) Overall it was FUN especially when we did lots of daring stunts that we have never done in our life before!! then the night has been taken by a dance performance 'Established Malaysian Dance Companies'. My day has been busy, it was a great worth! Time are utilised maximumly ;) so yeah, that about it my busy weekend and

of course,dad you are missed too in the midst of busy-ness.Love you loads.

Hari OM~